Sunday, June 12, 2011

Soul and some searching......

Soul : You know what!!! You really need to let me be. You need to let me do things I love, be what I want to be, say things I want to say, let me love, let me breathe, stop trying so hard Madhusha Dash!!!!
Madhusha : Ahaaaan!! You've been real active since I've read the conversations with god.I can feel you stirring and quitening every now and then lately. Whats the deal little soul? :)
Soul : Uhh! you think you're funny ?? Woman! Now you'll be that book for years and be sure that its a wonderfull thing that happened to you.And hell yes! It is a wonderful thing that happened to you. But can you hear me??? I mean, are you really listening to ME?
Madhusha: Excuse me!! I thought we're friends..Which implies I listen and talk to you.
Soul: Excuse ME! We're one! You are all about me and I'm all about you.You talk to me because you LOVE talking, talking endlessly, you talk to me when there's noone else to talk to . Thats mean and unfair ( to yourself by the way). I deserve more time, you deserve more time.
Madhusha: Arrey! But you make me do crazy stuff! Like! My sister's been teasing me about the gen next leader thing for a while now. I feel like a bit of a rebel at times. Hell!! People think I'm naive....Ok yeah! I am a little naive I guess....but still...letting you be you is a tough job baby! You know! You can be inappropriate sometimes.
Soul: Come on! Dont you just love being that............

Falling and hurting yourself, Then watching the scars fade away.......................
Having questions and searching for answers. Finding them unfold slowly.........
Searching for a great book to read for years and then finding one that answers so many of your questions.........
And before those questions are answered completely, finding a new set of questions to delve upon......
Looking at the sky above and see the clouds floating. Knowing I can take you there and let you float with them for hours before you come home....
Doing endless research on soulmates and knowing theres an answer waiting for you somewhere down the line....
Looking around the greenery and knowing this beauty is here to last forever....
Dodging , avoiding, skipping, punching, pushing, squashing problems before you finally look straight through them and know its all in your head!
Knowing you're all about me and its always better when we're together....hmmmmmmm....its always better when we're together.....somewherwhere in between together...

Madhusha: Excuse me! Stop! Whats with singing this song suddenly. You're wierd. incoherent. huh!
Soul: Excuse ME! Dont you do this.... like... so so many times in the middle of an intense discussion?
Madhusha: Oh ya! I do! I'm sure its you playing tricks! People must be thinking I'm crazy. Thats why you're inappropriate.
Soul: But doesnt that more often than not, make the conversation lighter....doesnt it sort things out of nowhere....
Madhusha: (Silence)
Soul: Hmmmmm....Finally :)
Madhusha: Soul..... I feel sleepy talking to you. Is it because you're boring?
Soul: Ummm....no maybe because you know I dont judge you......and you feel at peace with me....maybe I give you inner peace :)
Madhusha: Yaa....Could be.... inner peace...heheheh....yawwwwwwwwwwn!! Hearing you speak is like a lullaby....:) I think I love you...We'll talk about setting you free again....But then thanks for letting me finally have the courage to speak my mind, say the truth even if its a little uncomfortable intitially, in the long run truth helps...really helps, you help, you're actually the real me, I really dont feel scared when I'm you...you are synonymous to truth ...and love ....but I need to keep reminding myself that you're me and I'm you...thats a little tough...everyone around me has random ideas....I feel uneasy in the middle of those opinions....but you've found me a lot of like minded friends also...so you obviously are doing your bit....actually you're right...i can maybe set you free and let you be you....and be me....we're actually better together :)

6 comments:

wasted said...
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Madhusha said...

Dear Soul, Can I kill this wasted piece?

wasted said...
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Sridhar Ramachandran said...

Gr8 flow.. and actually feels like you r talking to another person..
but some how i feel the clarity on who is who ? or who is the real you is still haunting.. was that intentional..??

Madhusha said...

It was somewhat a chat with someone else....we hardly ever talk to ourselves ...considering we're sometimes so confused with ourselves and who we are becos of opinions, ego,drama,etc etc...the blog was an attempt to write without letting any external thought/opinion influence the flow...maybe connecting to myself....

Madhuresh said...

True, we hardly ever talk to ourselves :)
Beautifully written!!
Normally i am bit hesitant sharing something which i write, but your article reminded me of one of my fav pieces http://www.madhushaalaa-sumit.blogspot.com/2011/12/blog-post_18.html